Consumed by misguided emotion

Down the hole again. I reach for the walls gripping anything that I can, just trying to hold on…Its no use, the walls are too steep and the hole consumes me. As I fall I realize that this all feels familiar as if I've seen it or have been told about it, the thought is interrupted as I hit the ground. The pain is intense. I almost rather die than experience it any longer but I quickly dismiss the notion. I struggle to my knees.. then to my feet and realize I need to find a way out of this darkening pit. Nothing else seems to matter but the idea of escape, its all that’s on my mind. “The pain needs “to stop “the pain needs to stop” as if nothing else matters. I sit down…tired. Closing my eyes I hope tomorrow will get me out of this hole or at least get me some light…